April 7, 2017

It is another good day. The depression is very light. The beast is quiet. No panic attacks. No headache. And I slept well. I only woke twice and once was when the dogs were barking. I have work tonight so I got up a little too early but I did not...

April 6, 2017

It is a good day so far. Depression is all but gone. The beast is silent. No panic attacks. Only a slight headache when I awoke. And I slept well for a change. No bad dreams. No waking up unable to get back to sleep. Peace has settled upon my soul. I...

April 5, 2017

IT is a good day relatively speaking. No depression, no beast, no panic attacks and no headache. But my wife's day did not start out so well. My oldest is taking advantage of her again. She had demanded that my wife take Domani to the doctor's because...

April 4, 2017

It's another day another dollar. Or 60 cents after taxes.   I'm not too bad today. Depression is still with me but I've come to live with that. It's like a long lost friend these days. It seems to be a permanent situation. The beast is quiet...

April 3, 2017

It was a productive week in North Carolina. I ripped out the tub, a shower, a vanity and a toilet including the drain piping and water supply for each. Then I laid down hardybacker after which I put down carpet tiles (indoor/outdoor). The old bathroom...

March 26, 2017

It is not such a bad day. My depression is light, almost non existent. The beast is quiet. Last night's panic attack is a thing of the past. No headache when I woke and I slept well. The depression seems to be tied to how well I sleep. Or vice versa....

March 25, 2017

It is not such a bad day. Depression is a tad deeper than yesterday but that is all. I woke with a headache. I mild one though as these headaches go. No beast. No panic attacks. I slept fairly well only waking a few times. All in all a good day. I...

March 24, 2017

It is another good day. Depression is all but non existent. The beast is quiet. No headache, no panic attacks. I slept well except for the phone waking me up. Damn people never understand when you have to sleep late because you have to work that...

March 23, 2017

I am still doing well this morning. No depression to speak of. No beast. No panic attacks. No headache for once. And I slept well thank God. It is a good day so far but I have only just gotten up. I am drinking my coffee, my life blood and wondering...

March 22, 2017

It is a good day as these days go. The depression is mild. The beast is but a faint whisper. No panic attacks. I did sleep well although I woke with another headache. It wasn't a killer and it soon enough passed after I took some Tylenol. We have to...

March 21, 2017

Ugh. Just woke up. Not good so far, I need my coffee. I don't even move until I've drank a full pot. There. Coffee is done. I have had my fill. Now I feel if not human then at least awake. Very down today. It seems I cycle more frequently than I am...

March 20, 2017

It is a good day relatively. Depression is light so far. The beast is quiet. No headaches. No panic attacks. I slept well allthing considered. I am waiting for coffee to get done. Ahhh... there it is done. A good pot. Mmm Mmm. Alone again....

March 19, 2017

It is a good day after a better night. We went out to dinner and a play last night. We saw Barefoot in the Park. The play was great. It was hilarious. It was about a young couple who just got married and moved into a new apartment. It takes place in...

March 18, 2017

I was up and down all night long. Just one of those nights I guess. I had severe stomach cramps that kept waking me up. I heard from EdwardNorton earlier this week. He's not doing so well. His pancreas is shutting down and his diabetes is very bad....

March 17, 2017

Every now and then I get a little bit lonely.... But not now. Today I feel good. No depression to speak of. No headache. No panic attack. No beast. Just plain old normalcy. I can't recall the last time I felt this good. I just heard that Tomasisi...

March 16, 2017

The depression isn't too bad today. I did wake up with a headache but it was not a killer. A few tylenol and some caffeine took care of it. I also was working my way into a panic attack this morning and so I took a couple of the clonozepams. They...

March 15, 2017

It is way too early to be up but I had to get up for work. It is the witching hour. The 3 AM hour. The low point in life. I am, of course, down. Way down. Coffee is good. No headaches. No panic attacks. Just the little beastie and me. I say little...

March 14, 2017

Looks like out 18 inches of snow will turn out to be about 3 or 4. It has already turned into rain and making everything slushy and heavy. Another case of media hype although areas north and west of us are getting hammered. I guess it all depends on...

March 12, 2017

Not a very good day. I am down and out. Depression is deep but there is no sign of the beast. I am just so worn out. So tired. I need a day off. Well I am off tomorrow so just one more night to get through. I will have to bull my way through it. I'm...

March 11, 2017

It is not such a bad day. Not as these days have been going. Depression is pushing at me but the beast is quiet. I had a panic attack yesterday but have had none today. Not yet anyway. I did wake up with a headache but it was not a severe one. So all...

March 10, 2017

It is snowing outside. Like a blizzard. This after it was 65 degF yesterday! It is not laying on the streets and sidewalks but it IS laying on the grass. They call them snow showers. I call them a blizzard. The wind is whipping. The snow is coming...