March 25, 2017

It is not such a bad day. Depression is a tad deeper than yesterday but that is all. I woke with a headache. I mild one though as these headaches go. No beast. No panic attacks. I slept fairly well only waking a few times. All in all a good day. I...

March 24, 2017

It is another good day. Depression is all but non existent. The beast is quiet. No headache, no panic attacks. I slept well except for the phone waking me up. Damn people never understand when you have to sleep late because you have to work that...

March 23, 2017

I am still doing well this morning. No depression to speak of. No beast. No panic attacks. No headache for once. And I slept well thank God. It is a good day so far but I have only just gotten up. I am drinking my coffee, my life blood and wondering...

March 22, 2017

It is a good day as these days go. The depression is mild. The beast is but a faint whisper. No panic attacks. I did sleep well although I woke with another headache. It wasn't a killer and it soon enough passed after I took some Tylenol. We have to...

March 21, 2017

Ugh. Just woke up. Not good so far, I need my coffee. I don't even move until I've drank a full pot. There. Coffee is done. I have had my fill. Now I feel if not human then at least awake. Very down today. It seems I cycle more frequently than I am...

March 20, 2017

It is a good day relatively. Depression is light so far. The beast is quiet. No headaches. No panic attacks. I slept well allthing considered. I am waiting for coffee to get done. Ahhh... there it is done. A good pot. Mmm Mmm. Alone again....

March 19, 2017

It is a good day after a better night. We went out to dinner and a play last night. We saw Barefoot in the Park. The play was great. It was hilarious. It was about a young couple who just got married and moved into a new apartment. It takes place in...

March 18, 2017

I was up and down all night long. Just one of those nights I guess. I had severe stomach cramps that kept waking me up. I heard from EdwardNorton earlier this week. He's not doing so well. His pancreas is shutting down and his diabetes is very bad....

March 17, 2017

Every now and then I get a little bit lonely.... But not now. Today I feel good. No depression to speak of. No headache. No panic attack. No beast. Just plain old normalcy. I can't recall the last time I felt this good. I just heard that Tomasisi...

March 16, 2017

The depression isn't too bad today. I did wake up with a headache but it was not a killer. A few tylenol and some caffeine took care of it. I also was working my way into a panic attack this morning and so I took a couple of the clonozepams. They...

March 15, 2017

It is way too early to be up but I had to get up for work. It is the witching hour. The 3 AM hour. The low point in life. I am, of course, down. Way down. Coffee is good. No headaches. No panic attacks. Just the little beastie and me. I say little...

March 14, 2017

Looks like out 18 inches of snow will turn out to be about 3 or 4. It has already turned into rain and making everything slushy and heavy. Another case of media hype although areas north and west of us are getting hammered. I guess it all depends on...

March 12, 2017

Not a very good day. I am down and out. Depression is deep but there is no sign of the beast. I am just so worn out. So tired. I need a day off. Well I am off tomorrow so just one more night to get through. I will have to bull my way through it. I'm...

March 11, 2017

It is not such a bad day. Not as these days have been going. Depression is pushing at me but the beast is quiet. I had a panic attack yesterday but have had none today. Not yet anyway. I did wake up with a headache but it was not a severe one. So all...

March 10, 2017

It is snowing outside. Like a blizzard. This after it was 65 degF yesterday! It is not laying on the streets and sidewalks but it IS laying on the grass. They call them snow showers. I call them a blizzard. The wind is whipping. The snow is coming...

March 8, 2017

mmm mmm coffee is good this morning. I am OK this morning I guess. I mean the depression is light and the beast is silent. No headache so that is a good thing. No panic attacks which is even better. And my wife is home from Florida which is best....

March 7, 2017

It is not such bad day at this ungodly hour. The depression is all but gone. The beast is quiet. No headache this morning. No panic attck either. My wife will be home today. Unfortunately I will be in work when she gest home. She had a good time in...

March 6, 2017

It is not a very good day. I woke with a killer headache and the hangover from it has yet to leave me. The depression is more than moderately deep. The beast is loud and insistent. Obnoxious little bastard he is let me tell you. He keeps insisting I...

March 5, 2017

I am doing better today. The beast is quiet. The depression is faint. No headache when I woke up. No panic attacks. All told I am good if still missing my wife. Last night the beast was horrible. He pressed me something fierce. I even dissociated...

March 4, 2017

No headache this morning! Yayyy! Depression is light. Barely there. The beast is quiet. I did not sleep well though. I was up and down all morning. Bad dreams again don't ya know. The dreams have left a hangover behind. I still feel them. Not...