Nov 16, 2016

It's been a good couple of days. Depression has been light. The beast has been quiet. I've had no headaches or panic attacks. All in all things have been good. I have to get my wife's Christmas decorations down from the attic today. She gave me an...

Nov 14, 2016

It is not a bad day as these days go. Depression is light but noticeable. Still there. The beast is... whispering? Wellnot yelling at least. No headache today. No panic attacks. My knee is being good still. All in all a moderately good day. We will...

Nov 13, 2016

It is another good day. All things being relative that is. The depression is light. I had no headache. No panic attack. The beast is comparatively quiet. All told a day of near normalcy. The party last night was a huge success. The hit of the party...

Nov 12, 2016

A good day. A very good day. I slept well for a good solid 14 hours. Only woke up once for a bathroom break. No headache. No depression. No beast. Nothing but good ole normalcy. I feel good. I am good. It is cool but sunny out. It is only going up to...

Nov 11, 2016

It has been one of those days. Another killer headache when I got up. More tylenols and caffeine to get rid of it and still it is not totally gone. I did not get to be until 8:30 this morning. I slept like the dead and woke up around 1:30 with that...

Nov 10, 2016

This is not too bad a day. Depression is light enough to be all but gone. No beast thank God for small favors. Or I should say he is a faint echo inside my head. Easily ignored. No panic attacks thank God again. I did have a panic attack in work last...

Nov 9, 2016

So we have a new president elect. While I wanted neither him nor Clinton to win I knew there was no chance for Johnson. I voted for him anyway because I had to vote my conscience. My conscience told me Trump is a loud mouth ignorant man and Clinton is...

Nov 8, 2016

It is relatively good day. Depression is all but gone. No headache. I slept well. No beast. No panic attacks. Nothing but normalcy here today. The wife stayed home from work today. She is on a cleaning spree. Not just cleaning but moving all the...

Nov 7, 2016

It is not a bad day. Depression is light, almost non existent. No headaches, no panic attacks. No beast. That God for small favors. Damn beast. I hate him. It is a blessingthat he is quiet today. My car, the one I essentially gave to my oldest, has...

Nov 6, 2016

It is a good day. No depression. No headache. No panic attacks. Not even the beast. I am in good shape today although I am a bit tired. My wife has started decorating for Christmas. Of course. She starts right after Halloween every year. She lives...

Nove 5, 2016

It is a better day. Much better, My irritability is gone. Depression is faint but still there. The beast is being quiet. I slept well. In fact I did not get up until noon. No headache. No panic attacks. Knee is being good. It did not even bother me in...

Nov 4, 2016

Everybody hurts... sometimes. Just a tune that's going through my head. Yet it is so true. Everybody does hurt sometimes. Not all there today. I ranout of pills and went almost 3 days without them. Then they got my script wrong and instead of upping...

Nov 3, 2016

Things are well enough all things considered. Not quite with it this morning. Got another headache. Depression is getting worse. Tears are flowing. Just an all around blah day. Have to go into work today to get my ID card renewed. Joy to the world. ...

Nov 2, 2016

Another not so bad day. I did wake up with a headache but it was not a severe on. Nothing a little caffeine and some tylenol couldn't take care of. Depression today is not too bad either. Moderately light. The beast is quiet. No panic attacks either....

Nov 1, 2016 - PM

Not a good day. Not at all. It started out with a monstrous headache that is still killing me. Even coffee did and tylenol did not help. It is so bad that my daughter had to drive my wife to work. I simply could not. The pain is excrutiating. It is...

Nov 1, 2016

Depression is deep tonight. Too deep. I have double crews to deal with for the unit turnaround and I am ill equipped to do so. I am lucky sort of though. The real work doesn't start until Wednesday. So although I have double crews at the alky unit I...

Oct 31, 2016

It is not such a bad day. Depression still hangs in there but it is relatively mild. No panic attacks. No headaches. Knee is being good although it did bother me some in work last night. The beast is resting after his onslaught last night. Which...

Oct 30, 2016 - A Ramble

Well it's a quiet night at the oil works. Maybe a little too quiet. Nights like tonight are long ones. A little bit of activity might almost be welcome. Just a little. Of course it never goes that way. It is always either utter insanity or dead quiet...

Oct 29, 2016

The Halloween party last night was not too bad. I did endup holding up the walls but we did not stay too long. Only a couple of hours. We had to leave to pick up the grands. My wife had a good time talking and dancing and just being her outgoing self....

Oct 28, 2016

Not a very bad day but not especially good either. Depression hangs in there as always. Woke with a screaming headache and there was no coffee. My wife brought me home a cup from Dunkin Donuts. No panic attacks though so that is a plus. My knee...

Oct 27, 2016

It is not a bad day. Not a particularly good day either. Depression has stepped up a notch. I did not sleep well today. Not at all. Had nasty dreams again.All about HIM, again. I wish I knew what he looked like. Then perhaps he would not be so much...

Oct 26, 2016

It is not too bad a day. Depression is light. I've had not headaches now for a while. Nor any panic attacks. The beast is comparatively quiet. Or he was. My wife just stepped him up a notch. I was driving her to work and she decided to tell me the...

Oct 25, 2016

A good day. No depression. When there is no depression it is always a good day. No panic attacks. No headache. I slept well and only woke up twice. Only once with a bad dream. A dream about HIM of course. He isalways bigger than life. Always better...