May 21, 2017

I am such a sad sack loser. I can no longer tell if the tears are from the depression or the fact that my wife's extended stay in North Carolina begins this week. We head down there today after work. We will drive down together. When I have to return...

May 20, 2017

It is not a very good day. Depression is kicking my ass, making it difficult to move or to function. The beast is back in all his vociferousness. I did not sleep so well last night. I am tired and miserable and fed up with dayworks already. Man was...

May 19, 2017

Dayworks suck. All of the bosses are in and I need to find someway to keep myself busy out on the units. I can't sit in the office and monitor the units as I do on nightworks. I have to rely on the control operators to monitor them for me and, not...

May 18, 2017

Not a very good day but I guess it could have been worse. Depression has been a bear. Panic attacks have been right on the edge. Had a nasty headache when I got up. I didn't sleep too badly though so I guess there's a good side to everything. Kind of...

May 16, 2017

It is a tears day although I do not know why. I am way down again today. Depression is kicking my ass. But I have had no panic attacks or headaches at least. I slept like the dead last night. Not surpsising since I did not sleep a wink the night...

May 5, 2017 - The proposal

She sang: "Baby baby don't get hooked on me..." Too late. I already am. Hooked I mean. Seriously hooked. It is not such a bad day as these days go. Oh I have depression but it is relatively light. The beast is but a faint whisper inside my head. No...