Nov 30, 2016

Another good day without depression. No headaches either. I did have a panic attack last night in work that was pretty vicious but today is turning out to be a good one so far. I will see if I get another headache tonight. So far I'm batting 1000 with...

Nov 29, 2016

It's been a good few days here now. No depression to speak of. No panic attacks. No beastie boys in my head.   But I have been getting headaches like clockwork. Each night around 8 PM or so it starts. I start taking tylenol as soon as I feel it...

Nov 26, 2016

It is a good day. No depression to speak of. No headache, thank God. No panic attacks, no voices, no tears. I feel good. It was a little sunnyout when I gotup but the clouds have moved in and it is once again a gray day but that's not getting to me. I...

Nov 25, 2016

It is a good day. After a wonderful Thanksgiving day I have no depression. I did wake upat 5 AM with a killer headache. I took 5 tylenol then went back to bed. After sleeping a few more hours the headache was gone thank God. There have been no panic...

Nov 23, 2016

It's 2:30 AM. Where are YOUR children? LOL! Been one of those nights where I just can't sleep. Up every hour on the half hour. I have finally given up and so I got up out of bed. I am not so bad today. No depression, no headache, no panic attacks....

Nov 21, 2016

A much better day. Depression grows light again. Light enough to not be a problem. I slept well but rose with a headache. Tooksome headache pills (better living by modern chemistry) then drank some coffee. Headache gone. My knee had been troubling me...

Nov 20, 2016

It is not such a bad day. Depression has been lightening each day. Today it is not too bad. The beast is being his usual pain in the ass but I am ignoring him. Still tears come at unexpected moments. I slept a little better today, only waking a few...

Nov 19, 2016

The depression is milder today but still deep enough to make it hard to move. I did not sleep well again although I did not get out of bed until noon. Broken sleep is worse than no sleep at all. I had a headache when I woke but it was not a severe...

Nov 17, 2016

Depression is deep today. The beast is being a pain in the ass. He is stridently trying to convince me that I am better off dead. That the world is better off without me. That all I do is bring harm to those whom I love. That THEY are better off...

Nov 16, 2016

It's been a good couple of days. Depression has been light. The beast has been quiet. I've had no headaches or panic attacks. All in all things have been good. I have to get my wife's Christmas decorations down from the attic today. She gave me an...

Nov 14, 2016

It is not a bad day as these days go. Depression is light but noticeable. Still there. The beast is... whispering? Wellnot yelling at least. No headache today. No panic attacks. My knee is being good still. All in all a moderately good day. We will...

Nov 13, 2016

It is another good day. All things being relative that is. The depression is light. I had no headache. No panic attack. The beast is comparatively quiet. All told a day of near normalcy. The party last night was a huge success. The hit of the party...

Nov 12, 2016

A good day. A very good day. I slept well for a good solid 14 hours. Only woke up once for a bathroom break. No headache. No depression. No beast. Nothing but good ole normalcy. I feel good. I am good. It is cool but sunny out. It is only going up to...

Nov 11, 2016

It has been one of those days. Another killer headache when I got up. More tylenols and caffeine to get rid of it and still it is not totally gone. I did not get to be until 8:30 this morning. I slept like the dead and woke up around 1:30 with that...

Nov 10, 2016

This is not too bad a day. Depression is light enough to be all but gone. No beast thank God for small favors. Or I should say he is a faint echo inside my head. Easily ignored. No panic attacks thank God again. I did have a panic attack in work last...

Nov 9, 2016

So we have a new president elect. While I wanted neither him nor Clinton to win I knew there was no chance for Johnson. I voted for him anyway because I had to vote my conscience. My conscience told me Trump is a loud mouth ignorant man and Clinton is...

Nov 8, 2016

It is relatively good day. Depression is all but gone. No headache. I slept well. No beast. No panic attacks. Nothing but normalcy here today. The wife stayed home from work today. She is on a cleaning spree. Not just cleaning but moving all the...

Nov 7, 2016

It is not a bad day. Depression is light, almost non existent. No headaches, no panic attacks. No beast. That God for small favors. Damn beast. I hate him. It is a blessingthat he is quiet today. My car, the one I essentially gave to my oldest, has...

Nov 6, 2016

It is a good day. No depression. No headache. No panic attacks. Not even the beast. I am in good shape today although I am a bit tired. My wife has started decorating for Christmas. Of course. She starts right after Halloween every year. She lives...

Nove 5, 2016

It is a better day. Much better, My irritability is gone. Depression is faint but still there. The beast is being quiet. I slept well. In fact I did not get up until noon. No headache. No panic attacks. Knee is being good. It did not even bother me in...

Nov 4, 2016

Everybody hurts... sometimes. Just a tune that's going through my head. Yet it is so true. Everybody does hurt sometimes. Not all there today. I ranout of pills and went almost 3 days without them. Then they got my script wrong and instead of upping...

Nov 3, 2016

Things are well enough all things considered. Not quite with it this morning. Got another headache. Depression is getting worse. Tears are flowing. Just an all around blah day. Have to go into work today to get my ID card renewed. Joy to the world. ...