I'm kind of at odds today. Not really sure what to do with myself. I did the dishes. Straightened up the kitchen. Did 2 loads of wash and folded the clothes and put them away. Now I'm kind of lost. My wife is still out. She should be home soon but Lord only knows for real. We have had very little rain but it has been gray and cold all day. They say we have a warm front moving in but you can't tell it by me. Miah is here now along with his father. He is really wound up. Damn little tyke has taken to calling everyone a dumbass. I keep telling him to say dummy but the more I tell him not to say ass the more he does. Contrary little devil.

I hope to get out of this place when my wife gets home. I am going stir crazy. The walls are pressing in and gray leaden skies outside don't help any at all.

Depression is creeping back in. I can feel it coming. The sadness and the pressing tears and the beast winding up to his usual obnoxious self. I am hungry. There is food in the freezer but nothing I feel like making. Besides I don't want to mess up the kitchen after I straightened it up.

I really am at odds today. Itchy. Needing to get out of here and go do something. Anything at all. Maybe we can see an afternoon matinee. Maybe... oh who am I fooling? She will have running to do and we will be able to do nothing at all.

Such is life. Nothing at all. Everything is nothing and nothing is everything.

God I'm getting morose. Gotta nip that in the bud.

Maybe I'll listen to some tunes. That should help. Maybe some Neil Young. Or Guns 'n Roses. Yeah. Guns 'n Roses sounds good.

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Comments (8)

  1. Munkyman

    Put on your rubbers, go find a puddle & splash about in it until the neighbors stare. It’s a very good day for that & no one can be even a little down splashing in a puddle without a care in the world.

    April 06, 2017
    1. Munkyman

      Listen to Paradise City while splashing, then You Can Still Rock in America & round it out with Hand Jive.

      April 06, 2017
      1. noahbody

        LOL! OK.

        April 06, 2017
    2. noahbody

      My neighbors already stare.

      April 06, 2017
  2. GoldenPig2012

    I’m not sure what to do with myself, either. I’ve done dishes, twice. (breakfast and lunch) Have dinner thawing. I’ve got a plan. My four-year old got mad at me because his daddy went to work and it’s my fault. small grin. The man I love needs a biopsy he is still refusing to think about. My oldest son is getting married in three weeks, the DIL I do have hates me as do I her, for stupid reasons……………………..I’m tired. I think, like you……………I’m done.

    It’s too hard. Life. After all of it, it’s just too hard. I can’t do anything more to move forward. I can’t step forward, at all. So…………………..I’m with you.

    April 06, 2017
    1. noahbody

      (((HUGS))) You can only do what you can do.

      April 06, 2017
  3. Bettymom

    Well, what a dismal pair the two of you are! Snap out of it! Munky’s idea of splashing in a puddle sounds good. Maybe doing so naked would help, if not you, then the neighbors!

    April 06, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Yes. Good idea

      April 06, 2017