It is a warm and lazy day. My wife has been busy cooking Easter dinner. She did not go all out this year like she usually does. She says it just doesn't feel like Easter. Yesterday was the anniversary of her mother's death and it hit her hard this year. It is hard to believe it has been so long. The other day we went to visit her grave. I cried. That woman was a second mother to me. Much more than just a mother in law. I miss her. I can only imagine the pain my wife goes through.

Earlier this week was the anniversary of her father's death. It has only been a year since we lost him. That did not hit her so hard. She was close to him, sort of, but since they were divorced it was her mother who raised her and so it is her mother who she misses the most. To me he was no more than a father in law so his death does not hit me so hard either.

We have a full house today. Tomorrow and for the next 2 to 3 weeks the house will be empty. My oldest is finally getting a place of her own and so even Miah and Tally will be gone. The walls will echo with the emptiness.

It is a beautiful day outside and the kids are all out back playing on the trampoline. It makes me nervous when more than one is on the trampoline at a time but I was long ago over ridden and so they get on there 4 and 5 at a time. So far no one has gotten hurt but to me it is only a matter of time until someone does. Or maybe I'm just an old fuddy dud.

It is a good day. No depression to speak of thank the good Lord. No beast and only the beginnings of a panic attack quickly headed off by clonazepam.

Work tomorrow night. Blah! I really do need to retire. My wife says 3 more years but more realistically it will be something like 5 to 8. It is a bitch to wish your life away but I can't wait. It can't get here too soon for me. So close and yet so far.

Dinner smells so good it is making me hungry. Still too early to eat though. I've been eating hard boiled eggs to hold me over.

Tianna has received a 4 year scholarship for college from the Give Back program. She was one of 60 chosen from New Jersey. It is worth $85K. She received it based upon scholastic achievement and participation in her school programs. Not really surprising. She is a straight A student and is active in everything in school. But we are soooo very proud of her. I mean she is only in ninth grade and already she is getting scholarships. She will need them since she wants to be a doctor. (Pediatrician or barriatric surgeon depending on the day). She is a good girl. If anyone can do it she can.

Well that's all folks. Be good and stay strong and never forget the magic of smiles and hugs and laughter.

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Comments (2)

  1. Bettymom

    Wow, I’m so impressed by your granddaughter, getting such a big scholarship at her age is quite an accomplishment. I’ll just bet she will make a great doctor!

    April 16, 2017
    1. noahbody

      I believe she will.

      April 16, 2017