It is not a good day. Not at all. I am full of tears today. I am lonely and alone. I have tried getting moving but I only get so far before I collapse back into bed. I am out of energy and so alone. I need something. Dunno what or who but I need something badly. Something to stop this damn mind from spinning around in circles. Something to shut it the hell up. But nothing works. Despair fills my heart. Hopelessness fills my soul. Even the hope of hope is gone. I am all alone today and it is killing me. I need to eat something or do something or... dunno. Just dunno. I am very dunno again today. Just dunno.

I have done the dishes and the laundry. I still have to fold the clothes. I just can't seem to stay moving. I have work tonight, unfortunately. I do not feel like work at all.

I have to get moving again somehow. I have to get done before work. I have only 3 more hours before work. Work tonight is going to be a bitch.

Be good, stay strong and all that good stuff. Remember the magic. It can change your life for the better if you let it.

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Comments (7)

  1. GoldenPig2012

    Well, today sucks for you. You aren’t dead and neither are the ones you hold dear, so………….there is good in this day. Life is hard, it’s unfair and it sucks even in the best of times.

    Trust me, my life sucks. I can’t do anything right, but I keep standing and living and laughing. So……………….it could be worse. You aren’t alone. You are heard.

    May 16, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Thank you

      May 16, 2017
  2. cusijaimeflores

    If you need to fall, fall on something soft so you don’t hurt yourself.

    May 16, 2017
    1. noahbody

      LOL!

      May 16, 2017
      1. cusijaimeflores

        Lol.

        May 17, 2017
  3. Bettymom

    Now, that is good advice, my friend. I know a guy in Houston- he’s known as “Mattress Mac” because he does commercials for his furniture store while “wearing” a mattress, his head out the top, his arms out the sides, etc. That would be perfect (unless you land on your head, of course.)

    May 16, 2017
    1. noahbody

      LOL!

      May 16, 2017