April 10, 2017

It is a good day relatively speaking. I have no depression. The beast is silent. No panic attacks. No headache and I slept well.

But my wife is serverely depressed. She befriended and long lost boyfriend (from before we met) and started texting him on the phone. They quickly became friends. She called him her best friend and confidant. He was someone who always made her laugh and to whom she could always turn for advice. She could and did bare her soul to him. He is happily married, a grandfather, and she thought she was safe. Last night he texted her that they could not go on like that because he was falling in love with her. He said he had always loved her and still did. So she broke it off with him but to her it is like losing a best friend. She has cried somewhat over it and now it has her depressed. So depressed that it is hard to get her up and moving. It is a beautiful day outside and I suggested a picnic but that fell on deaf ears. She just does not want to move. I did manage to get her up at least and dressed but we will see if we do anything with the day.

If I didnotimplicitly trust her I couldbe jealous. I knew it would come to this. To him making a play for her. I knew it and yet I said nothing. Now she hurts because of it. It breaks my heart to see her like this. Apparenlty this guy tried to kill himself after she broke up with him which should have been a huge red flag but I let it pass mainly because he made her laugh and he was so obviously good for her. Things I cannot say for myself. It is a sad situation but one that was inevitable if you ask me. Don't tell her I said that please.

I slept later than I wanted to. I wanted to be up at 10 but did not wake until 11:30. That will make it hard to get on a daywork schedule for Wed and Thurs. It will be hard to go to bed early tonight to get up early tomorrow so that I can go to bed even earlier tomorrow night and get up at 3 AM Wed morning. Readjusting after a 3 midnight weekend is always tough. Going the other direction, from daywork to nightwork, is always easier.

Coffee was extra good this morning. My wife bought Melitta, which I love, and which is always extra good even though it is expensive, too expensive to make it a habit except when it is on sale.

Dear lord I am tired. I keep yawning. Apparently even 11:30 was too early to get up. I don't recall shutting off the alarm but I must have done so.

Be good people. Stay strong and all of that good stuff about magic. Change your life for for the better.

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Comments (9)

  1. SEC

    and tell her of your trust

    April 10, 2017
    1. noahbody

      She knows of my trust.

      April 10, 2017
      1. SEC

        Yeah but it is nice to be reminded

        April 10, 2017
        1. noahbody

          I will do that although I am afraid of the questions it will raise… such as why wouldn’t I trust her?

          April 10, 2017
          1. SEC

            well it is in how you phrase it, like “I love how I can rely on your judgement” rather than just an “I trust you”

            April 10, 2017
  2. ccunningham

    I can sympathize so much with this situation. My heart goes out to you and your wife, and I hope that she is able to pull out of the depression soon.

    April 10, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Thank you.

      April 10, 2017
  3. Bettymom

    I swear, the two of you could have your own reality TV show and get rich.

    Just kidding. I sure do feel sorry for your wife. What a kick in the teeth that was! So much for him being happily married, I guess. All you can do is exactly what you are doing. Try to support her and hope she will come out of this in time. I think she will.

    April 10, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Yes. It will take time but she will be all right.

      April 10, 2017