It is not such a bad day so far. Depression is there but manageable. The beast is a faint whisper in my head. No panic attacks so far and no headache when I got up. I did sleep like shit last night. I had trouble falling asleep because my mind just wouldn't shutdown. Then when I did fall asleep troubled dreams kept waking me up. Troubling dreams indeed. They were all related to the same thing that was on my mind when it would not shut down and allow me to sleep. I think I got less than 4 hours sleep all told and that was broken sleep.
I am in work right now and so far it is a quiet day. But then the day has just really begun. We have some maintenance work going on at the Alky unit but the crude still is quiet.
I am dying of heartburn and indigestion right now. Eating tums like they were candy but all they do is generate gas. They are not helping any with the heartburn. That is back to how it was years ago when I lived with heartburn every single day.
I am considering whether or not to delete my new Facebook account when my wife comes home. My original plan was to delete it but it has been pointed out to me that all my family is on there and it would be a nice thing to be part of their lives. I wouldn't have to use it all of the time but I could periodically stay in touch with everyone. Not that we're not in touch just about every day anyway. My biggest issue with it is that I am now getting emails from Facebook every time someone comments or likes a post or sends me a message. I hate that and am sure there is a way to turn off the emails. I just have to find it.
My wife remains in North Carolina. She won't be home until Tuesday next week at the very earliest. Truth be told she will probably stay there until next weekend or even longer. She is getting a lot of painting done but it has been raining and so they have been unable to do our driveway. On Monday she has people coming out to give her an estimate on a heating/cooling system for the house. Dunno why she is bothering with that since we don't have the money for it right now but I guess it is better to know what we're dealing with. Perhaps we could put it on my credit card but she is all ready running that up with painting supplies. I still have plenty of room on it though.
I have not yet heard from her today. I will try calling her in a little while if she does not contact me first. I miss her something terrible. So does Katey our dog. She is kind of lost without my wife around. So am I.
Well be good, stay strong and always remember the magic found in smiles and hugs and laughter. It can change your life for the better.