It was a productive week in North Carolina. I ripped out the tub, a shower, a vanity and a toilet including the drain piping and water supply for each. Then I laid down hardybacker after which I put down carpet tiles (indoor/outdoor). The old bathroom is now officially a bedroom although I still have to build a closet and put down trim.
Depression hasn't been too much of a problem. Oh it was still there and it took an act of God each day to get me moving but once I started moving it wasn't too hard to keep moving. We had a good week. On Saturday while I finished laying the carpet squares the girls painted the living room. It was a steel gray but they painted it an eggshell white. Apparently it took quite a bit to cover the gray but they finally got it done. Meanwhile my wife was out for the day with a friend. I admit I was worried about her being out alone. We took a trip to where she was going on Friday and it was a steep and winding mountain road that ran way up a mountain with many switch backs. The road ran so high that it ran into the clouds and there was a lot of fog and rain. It was an adventure when I was with her but her going there alone had me worried. Still she made it there and back all right so I guess my worry was unfounded. I couldn't help it though.
On the trip down I slept most of the way since we left after a midnight. But I was awake for the entire trip back. I drove part way in fact. We hit heavy traffic and multiple accidents on the capitol beltway but that is always that way any time of the day or night and any day of the week.
Now I am back in work and it is an insane day already. They ask for miracles. I can only do so much with what I am given. I have been typing this all morning in between crises. I have a huge knot in stomach and I am freaking out all ready and the day has just begun. Then I have to do an audit tomorrow on the Alky unit. I have housekeeping just like I had last month on the crude still. This is all bullshit and we know it but they make us do it even though nothing ever changes or gets done.
I am tired. So tired of it all. I really do need to retire. Such bullshit makes everyone's life miserable. I guess I will do a pre-audit today.
No time for depression today yet I cannot help it. It is still there as always. It presses on me and weighs on me. Awww fuck it. Who gives a flying fuck anway? I sure don't.
Be good and all of that good stuff. Stay strong and always remember the magic found in smiles and hugs and laughter. It can change your life if you let it.