April 5, 2017

IT is a good day relatively speaking. No depression, no beast, no panic attacks and no headache. But my wife's day did not start out so well. My oldest is taking advantage of her again. She had demanded that my wife take Domani to the doctor's because we think her broke his ankle playing football. Apparently she thinks my wife owes it to her since she is working two jobs. My wife had plans to go out with a friend today for her birthday (the friend's) and now she won't be able to do that. Naturally my wife is very frustrated. She does not like being used. She went out and sat in the car rather than be in here with my oldest. I try to tell her to say no but she says if she does than she is called all sorts of things by my daughter. I tell her screw her and the names she calls you and just say no but she will not do that. Regardless when she is miserable than so am I and hence the reason I said relatively in the first sentence.

Now my youngest is here too. She cheers up my wife so I can't complain but all of these people this early in the morning disturbs me greatly.

So I am off today and I can already see that I will spend the day alone, as always. At least I am not alone right now. I guess I can't have it both ways. But depression will be back when I am alone again. It always is.

It is a beautiful day outside. Absolutely gorgeous. Mild temperature with a very slight breeze and tons of sunlight. The sky is so deep with nary a cloud in sight. An azure sky is so beautiful. A good day to be outside. Perhaps I will do some yardwork today just the get out of the house. Spring is here at last. The tree in my front yard has sprouted flowers. White ones. It is so pretty. All of the other trees have buds and the lawn is greening again. I have to fertilize it to get it off to a good start. Unfortunately I will not be able to get the fertilizer today since my wife will be out all day. We still need to get her a back tire. Her one tire is worn way down. Not likely to be able to do that today either. And I have to get to Delaware to buy smokes. Another thing I won't get to do today.

Already she is gone. SO are both my daughters. I am alone with the kids. DJ and Miah. Two little tykes. DJ really needs work on his speech. He has a severe lisp. So bad it is hard to understand him. Miah is younger and he also is hard to understand.

Well it has taken me an hour to write this. Coffee is done and gone and it is time to start moving and doing.

Be good people. Stay strong. Always remember the magic found in smiles and hugs and laughter. It can change your life for the better if you let it.

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Comments (8)

  1. belladora

    I want that kind of day around here. Beautiful sky, nice breeze, jealous !

    April 05, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Don’t be. It won’t last. Rain tonight and tomorrow. Severe thunderstorms.

      April 05, 2017
      1. belladora

        I only live a “day at a time”. so I can be jealous.

        April 05, 2017
        1. noahbody

          LOL! It is all any of us should do. You can be jealous. It is a gorgeous day. We are lucky.

          April 05, 2017
  2. Bettymom

    We had a nice day, too, but may have snow tomorrow. Figures, since we have to go out.

    April 05, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Snow??? Better you than us.

      April 06, 2017
      1. Bettymom

        There was 2" of snow south of us. All we got were the 50 mps wind gusts. Every time we tried to get in and out of the car, we had to hang onto the doors for dear life!

        April 06, 2017
        1. noahbody

          Oh dear Lord!

          April 06, 2017