Feb 17, 2017

It is not too bad of a day. Depression is here but it is light. The beast is mostly silent except for some rare moments when he rears his ugly head. No panic attacks or headaches in days now.

Work wasn't too bad these past couple of dayworks. Yesterday was rather insane but that's how dayworks roll which is just one of the reasons I hate them. By insane I mean it was one of those days where shit comes at me faster than I can deal with it. It was a day where I had stuff going on on both units and I had to run back and forth like a madman. Then I had an operator on the crude still get sick and have to go home. I had to play operator for 2 hours before I could get someone to come in to cover for him. It was an interesting experience since I have little to no experience as an operator on the crude still. Unlike the Alky where I was an operator for 15 years or so. But I made it through and here I am... alone again... writing this missive.

Today starts a week long warm spell for us. Temps will be in the 50's for the next week. Tomorrow and Sunday they will be in the 60's. We'll even see some sun which is always a good thing. I'm not fool enough to think that winter is done with us yet but I'll take the warm weather and sunshine any time I find it.

As I said I am alone again today. My wife is out with her sister and my daughter has out car. Today it does not bother me so much unlike some days when it drives me to the brink of a panic attack. I have been doing some housework and trying to stay busy.

I have to go get two front tires for the car later after my daughter brings it back. She should be back in time because she has to go to work. I'll have to drive her.

I slept well these past two days. Of course I did. Daywork really takes it out of me. I mean I get up at 3 AM so I can drink my coffee and get a shower before work. I have to be there around quarter to 5 which means we have to leave about 4:15. Yes we. My wife drives me because she needs the car during the day. We only have the one car since my daughter blew up my car. And yet we still let her drive this one. Or my wife lets her anyway. I'm not so sure I would be so generous if it was up to me but it is my wife's car so it is up to her.

Well be good and stay strong. Always face the world with a smile and never refuse a hug. Try for at least one good laugh per day. There is real magic in smiles and hugs and laughter. Try it and see it change your life for the better.

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Comments (4)

  1. Bettymom

    Doing some housework, eh? Notice, that’s what I picked out of all the information you provided?

    February 17, 2017
    1. noahbody

      LOL! Yeah I did notice that.

      February 17, 2017
  2. noahbody

    there s fast then there is too fast.

    February 18, 2017