March 11, 2017

It is not such a bad day. Not as these days have been going. Depression is pushing at me but the beast is quiet. I had a panic attack yesterday but have had none today. Not yet anyway. I did wake up with a headache but it was not a severe one.

So all told I am ahead of he game.

Last night in work was bitter cold. It would not have been so bad if it wasn't for the wind. Anytime it died down it was not too cold. But the wind whipped most of the night giving us real feel temps in the single digits. Today it is still cold out and there is still a stiff breeze although it is nothing compared to last night. There is some sun today and that is a very good thing.

Tonight we go to DST. That is another very good thing. It means that after tonight it will not be getting dark until around 7:30 PM. I love Daylight Savings Time and wish we could stay there year round. Already I feel the darkness getting lighter. We are approaching the winter equinox (around March 20th) the time when the length of daylight hours equals the length of night. That is another very good thing. I live for when the days get longer. Now if we could just get past the gray days of winter that we've been having. Admittedly we HAVE had more sunlight lately but still the gray days come rolling in. DST means spring is right around the corner thank God.

DST also means I only work 11 hours tonight.

I was alone again when I go up. I had to stumble out into the kitchen with my headache and put coffee on. I winced at the light coming in the window. Some sunlight although it is gone now and we are once again in a gray day. Overcast. It appears as if it could snow again but we are not supposed to get more snow until Tuesday. They are saying that will be a big snowfall. It will start Monday night and come down clear into Wednesday. It will be a Nor'easter that combines with another storm coming in from the west to give us a very big snowfall. I have heard no predictions as to the amount as of yet but all of the models say it will be a big one. Hopefully it will be winter's last hurrah. I am more than ready for spring.

But I am not alone now. My wife is home with my daughter and her two youngest as well as T. It is good to see Miah and Tally again. They are growing so quickly not. Miah is speaking in complete sentences and Tally is walking. The little tyke gets into everything now that she is.

My oldest has gotten a second job. She is excited at the prospect. It means more hours for her and more money which she sorely needs. She is a manager at Five Guys and now a waitress at another burger joint. She will be bringing home somewhere around $700/week which is a livable wage but it also means my wife will be saddled with her kids that much more. Needless to say my wife is not thrilled at the prospect. At least she has her own car now and does not need us to run her to work and back every day. That is a break of sorts.

Well be good people. Stay strong and remember the magic found in smiles and hugs and laughter. It can change your life for the better if you but let it.

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Comments (2)

  1. Bettymom

    Sounds like you’re doing better than just existing – that’s great! I don’t envy your daughter working two jobs. I used to take in typing at night and on weekends when Hubby was in college and it just wore me out – and I was still in my teens and early twenties!! I don’t know how anyone does it. But good luck to her!

    March 11, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Thanks. She is excited at the prospect.

      March 12, 2017