March 12, 2017

Not a very good day. I am down and out. Depression is deep but there is no sign of the beast. I am just so worn out. So tired. I need a day off. Well I am off tomorrow so just one more night to get through. I will have to bull my way through it. I'm running on sheer will power alone. The tears are present, as always. Tears of pain and loss.

I amalone again today except for my son. He is outside working on his car. He needed anew fuels injector. He asked to use my tools and I let him, on the condition that he makes sure they all get put back properly. It is always questionable whether or not they will even make it back into the toolbox let alone properly.

We're battening down the hatches for tthe blizzard that is coming. It is supposed to snow from tomorrow night clear through Tuesday to Wednesday. Depending on who you listen to we can expect anywhere from as little as 8 inches all the way up to 16. Hopefully this is winter's last hoorah although it is supposed to be bitter cold on Wednesday and Thursday. Today is a gray day and you all know how I detest gray days. I need sunshine to thrive. At least now we are in DST so there will be more light in the afternoon. DST means spring is on the way. Soon comes the equinox which is the turning point after which the length of daylight exceeds that of the darkness. It is just over a week away.

Blah. I am so blah today. Just seriously down. It is hard to even move. I feel like I could sleep for a week.

My wife should be home soon I hope. I need a hug.

At least there are no panic attacks. I did have another headache when I woke. A mild one but that is relative. It was still strong enough to make me wince whenever I moved and to make the light feel like daggers in my eyes. A handful of tylenol and some caffeine and the headache is mostly gone. Remnants of it still hang around though.

Well be good and all of that good stuff. Stay strong and always remember the magic. It can change your life if you allow it.

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Comments (6)

  1. Bettymom

    I think we had similar days today.

    We’re only expecting between 1 & 3" of snow. You guys really got the worst of it, I guess.

    March 13, 2017
    1. noahbody

      Seems like it’s turning into a big flop.

      March 14, 2017
  2. belladora

    you needed. We are getting 18+ of snow just after you. Plus we have winds now. You are right, DST will save us. Sun shining, feeling the warmth on your face when you look up. Can’t wait but will. haha.

    March 13, 2017
    1. noahbody


      March 14, 2017
  3. noahbody

    me too.

    March 14, 2017